Every year on September 11th, I reflect on the world and all that fun stuff. But I also think about myself and how different my life is today than it was on that day in 2001. Wow...has my world changed.
Back in 2001 I was living in Southern California with my ex-husband. I had a MUCH different lifestyle. I worked 12 hours shifts at all hours of the day and night at Los Angeles Air Force Base where I was stationed. At the time I was pretty set on never having children and I longed to live in California forever. I was chipping away at college classes toward a degree I wasn't quite sure about. I remember briefly wanting to be an actress but I feared facing the audition scene that is said to be brutal in LA. Then I had a brief love affair with wanting to study psychology. I think that was really more for my own benefit than helping others.Oh yeah, and I was all about being a broadcast journalist until I realized how much I despised seeing myself on camera. I did cover my college news station in Orange County for a semester or two which was fun while it lasted.
I was 22-years-old at the time and so lost is life I could hardly steer my own way through a single day.
Before September 11th rocked my world, I had these false fantasies about what the world was like and I was so blind to the destruction and pain that is driven by hate. Within seconds of seeing the breaking news of the crumbling towers on television, I was called into work and had to "hunker down" for more hours than anyone would want to spend in a command post.
And while that day has left a permanent painful tattoo on my heart, I can't help but think of how different my life is today.
I'm as far from a military lifestyle as I possibly could be. After dabbling in different careers, I finally found my niche and I don't want to ever leave this sweet little writing world that I am living in. Sixteen years later, I have the two daughters I swore I would never have and I'm living in New England, where I swore I would never move back to. The most shocking of all is the amazing husband that I managed to land. I'm not gonna get all sappy here but, I got pretty lucky when I scored Mr. Slinger. Several of my friends have called him a "Saint" for dealing with me.
Here's a few photos of my past life...